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And you know are going to alleviate these symptoms, but you just can't get out of bed and do them.

I was like, that's where I was.

Like, that's crazy.

So then your back starts hurting and then it makes your leg hurt.

So I get pulled up and...

And then it makes you lose self-confidence because you're... And this is actually, you asked me at the beginning of this, what...

I'm standing in front of this tribunal right away.

So like, it's like a court.

There's like this 12-foot judge's desk that, or judge's bench, whatever it's called.

veterans go through or, or anybody with these issues.

And this is a perfect example of it is it's this, this horrible cascade, this horrible domino effect that can start with the constant headaches, but then the constant headache means you can't work out that day because you have a headache.

And it's in a horseshoe shape, so you, and it's like jet black, like made of obsidian, like the black is black.

And I'm standing on a...

a pedestal that's like three feet tall so you know way below this thing in the middle and there's 12 shadow figures presiding over me and they're all looking down at me like they're judging me and i just stand there for like 10 minutes or what felt like 10 minutes time did not really exist um

And then when you can't work out that day, you start to feel insecure because you're

you're not in good shape.

And then because you're not working out and not in good shape, your body starts to break down on you.

So for me, I have some knee injuries and some back injuries, but staying moving is what keeps them feeling okay.

And I'm standing there and nothing happens.

It's when I stop moving and stop exercising that those things get really bad.