Jameela Jamil

Yes.

And I'm super disconnected from my body, but that's why I think I had to do EM.

I wouldn't have thought that.

No, but that's why I have to personify it.

I have to look at it as this separate being that I've been gifted the privilege of looking after because I can't feel it.

I don't feel pain.

So I've learned to intellectualize it and go –

If this was someone else's body, if this was the body of my best friend and she gave it to me to look after, what would I do for it?

I would look after it.

I would be gentle with it.

I would think about its hormones and how to honor those hormones.

And I would think about its cycle and its needs and what it needs to eat today.

I would not be thinking about whether some man liked it or not.

And so that's how I've managed to overcome that is really like intellectualizing and understanding that this is a whole process.

This vessel is going to be with me until the day I die and I'm so grateful to it and I'm so sorry to my body for everything that I said and did to it.

Shame on me.

I understand that I was mentally ill.

I understand that it was an eating disorder.

I understand that it was amorphous and pervasive and insidious and even obvious cultural programming.

I maintain responsibility for what I did and I maintain accountability for what I did.