Jane

But I was never someone who was like, I cannot wait to be a mom.

It was just kind of like, we'll see.

It's a lot of information, yeah.

Yeah.

I feel that so deeply.

Like, I feel like I'm so aware of being pregnant every minute of every day.

And I'm just like, what the fuck?

And I have to do this for at least three more months.

And then, you know, and then you have to give birth and then afterwards.

I knew we would.

yeah that's I'm just thinking about yeah her she was relatively young I mean I guess she was younger than me yeah mid-20s when she had me and yeah she was like living in another country with my dad her husband at the time and moving around a lot because of his work and kind of uprooted constantly and so I think she really just had

you know, as her support system.

And she's also told me that she didn't know anything about babies before I like arrived in the world.

So she was just like, ah, what do I do with this?

And so I think that combination probably led her to feel like, okay, I gotta, I gotta just completely focus on how to do this and do it well.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I'm wondering why, too.

Well, I guess if I can share, the first thought that I had was...