Jason Wilson
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267 appearances
2 recordings
2 series
first heard Jan 2025
last heard 25 Dec
Jason Wilson’s voice in public audio — every appearance, attributed to the second.
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Absolutely. Definitely. I call that a masculine male. You were a masculine male. That's all I was. Everything was centered around being masculine, being strong, bold. What's limited with only being a masculine male? Well, I used my mother caring for her as an example when she developed dementia. I couldn't fully meet that moment in her life by only being a protector and provider.
Those two roles I had mastered. Whenever the pharmaceutical companies were trying to fleece her out of more money, I was able to protect her. When her Social Security check couldn't meet the difference that we owe the doctors and for the prescription, I was able to provide.
But what happens when she asks me a question 10 times and I have to answer it the 11th time without her feeling any frustration? What happens when she's crying and she's confused and I have to meet that moment with compassion and love? What happens when her fingernails need filing or clipped and I have to meet that moment? Only being a protector and a provider was too limiting for me.
I couldn't be all that she needed. And so when that time happened in her life, I chose to meet that moment instead of run from it. And often men say, I want to be a comprehensive man. What do I need to do? I tell them always to run to the moments where you fear feeling the emotions that make you feel weak. And so that's what transformed me. And I said, this is living. This is power.
That's how I'm able to reach so many boys and men. That's why I'm contacted by even UFC fighters. These men beat pretty much everyone that you can think of in the average setting that's not trained in MMA. But yet they're starting to see like, wait a minute, I can't live from this rage that I feel, this childhood trauma that keeps time traveling to the present and ruins my life. So here it is.
These men, the greatest warriors, are they weak now because they want to be comprehensive, because they want to be human, authentically human? No. They're fighting now for their right to experience more of life than just providing and protecting.
I saw it destroying my marriage. Really? I lacked patience. I didn't even understand emotions as far as what a woman is feeling. So, again, if you're... I mean, my brothers were drug dealers, you know? And I grew up in an area where... I'm in the middle of gangs from each mile road in Detroit.
So I didn't know how to express or really feel emotions outside of being tough and strong or appearing to be what we would call a thug, which I've made an acronym for, which is a traumatized human unable to grieve. I said, this isn't living. And when me and Nicole, we were arguing our last time before we decided to get a separation in 2015. So look at the time span there.
I said, I need to really dig deep into what's causing me to be this man. What's causing me not to embrace all of the human attributes that I've been given by the Most High. And it was my childhood trauma. It was my father wound. It was the losses that I've experienced that had shaped my mind into believing another loss is coming. you weren't even good enough for your father to affirm you.
But upon deeper reflection, I realized that I didn't have a bad father. I just had a father who had been wounded and didn't go through his process. He loved me. But again, he came from an era where the masculine male was the gold standard. And so until I saw the truth there, before he died, we were able to reconcile, which was beautiful.
And he was called by God to be a pastor, but ran from it because he didn't want to be perceived as a pimp. Because in his era, the pastors, the pimps transitioned into being a pastor. Yeah. And he told me the story. I couldn't believe it. He says... You're tax-exempt still. So they were just a hunk. They were a pimp, but they were getting more out of it. Still drove a nice car. Wow.
And all you had to do was to pander to the women's emotions. Oh, my gosh. So my father was a barber, very popular in Detroit, so he cut a lot of the pimps' hair back then. Wow. And a lot of them would tell him, big O, man, nothing like being a pastor. It's almost just like being a pimp. But he allowed that to stop his calling. He could have changed it.
But because he was just a masculine male, my father was a provider. He would work 12, 13-hour days, come home, wore out. At the end of his life, he couldn't walk. He had Parkinson's disease. My mother worried to death. He worked to death. So those are two extremes that I learned from. And I said, you know, I'm not going to be either.
I learned from my dad to make sure I take a rest, take rest in between work. If you don't take a break, I often say you eventually break. And with my mom, the brain wasn't meant to hold the trauma she experienced. My grandfather was lynched. Her first marriage was abusive. Then my brother gets murdered. So all of this she couldn't let go.
And what was amazing, brother, she didn't find peace, my mom, until she started to forget. Forget. Yeah, because of dementia, she couldn't remember all of the trauma.
That's why the scriptures say, cast your cares upon God. We tend to hold them and grasp and hold and control it. And that's what wears us down, especially as men. We can't rest. We can't let go of the disappointments of the day. We're still trying to work when we should be resting. That's what tomorrow is for. Table those things, find rest, and then get up and hit it hard again.
But again, if your whole identity isn't working and performing, we can't sleep. Yeah. And I guess that's one of the greatest blessings of me knowing so many influential individuals. I get to see the side that people don't see. Yeah, of course. And I said, well, money isn't the answer. Being a celebrity isn't the answer. Being a professional athlete or fighter isn't the answer.
But being authentic in who you are. is the answer. For me, when I found my purpose in Christ, when I found my purpose in following the Most High, that really solidified me, I would say, in being a comprehensive man. Because again, you could be multifaceted, but without a purpose, you're just a busy person.
No. When I get to meet them behind the closed doors. You see the pain. I see the pain. The facade comes off. They willingly take it off because they're tired of wearing it. The Superman cape that's been strangling them. Take it off. No. The millionaires. No. Because the money, see, the thing about being a millionaire, what I've learned is You can do everything.
Man, if I could go to Spain, this would give me a break. You do it, now you still don't find peace. Yeah, you still have to live with you in Spain. The average guy can always have that dream or that vision. Like, you know, one day when I can do this or get this house or get this firm, that's when everything will be together. The millionaire has done everything and still is unhappy.
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