Jason Wilson

I saw it destroying my marriage. Really? I lacked patience. I didn't even understand emotions as far as what a woman is feeling. So, again, if you're... I mean, my brothers were drug dealers, you know? And I grew up in an area where... I'm in the middle of gangs from each mile road in Detroit.

So I didn't know how to express or really feel emotions outside of being tough and strong or appearing to be what we would call a thug, which I've made an acronym for, which is a traumatized human unable to grieve. I said, this isn't living. And when me and Nicole, we were arguing our last time before we decided to get a separation in 2015. So look at the time span there.

So I didn't know how to express or really feel emotions outside of being tough and strong or appearing to be what we would call a thug, which I've made an acronym for, which is a traumatized human unable to grieve. I said, this isn't living. And when me and Nicole, we were arguing our last time before we decided to get a separation in 2015. So look at the time span there.

I said, I need to really dig deep into what's causing me to be this man. What's causing me not to embrace all of the human attributes that I've been given by the Most High. And it was my childhood trauma. It was my father wound. It was the losses that I've experienced that had shaped my mind into believing another loss is coming. you weren't even good enough for your father to affirm you.

I said, I need to really dig deep into what's causing me to be this man. What's causing me not to embrace all of the human attributes that I've been given by the Most High. And it was my childhood trauma. It was my father wound. It was the losses that I've experienced that had shaped my mind into believing another loss is coming. you weren't even good enough for your father to affirm you.

But upon deeper reflection, I realized that I didn't have a bad father. I just had a father who had been wounded and didn't go through his process. He loved me. But again, he came from an era where the masculine male was the gold standard. And so until I saw the truth there, before he died, we were able to reconcile, which was beautiful.

But upon deeper reflection, I realized that I didn't have a bad father. I just had a father who had been wounded and didn't go through his process. He loved me. But again, he came from an era where the masculine male was the gold standard. And so until I saw the truth there, before he died, we were able to reconcile, which was beautiful.

And he was called by God to be a pastor, but ran from it because he didn't want to be perceived as a pimp. Because in his era, the pastors, the pimps transitioned into being a pastor. Yeah. And he told me the story. I couldn't believe it. He says... You're tax-exempt still. So they were just a hunk. They were a pimp, but they were getting more out of it. Still drove a nice car. Wow.

And he was called by God to be a pastor, but ran from it because he didn't want to be perceived as a pimp. Because in his era, the pastors, the pimps transitioned into being a pastor. Yeah. And he told me the story. I couldn't believe it. He says... You're tax-exempt still. So they were just a hunk. They were a pimp, but they were getting more out of it. Still drove a nice car. Wow.

And all you had to do was to pander to the women's emotions. Oh, my gosh. So my father was a barber, very popular in Detroit, so he cut a lot of the pimps' hair back then. Wow. And a lot of them would tell him, big O, man, nothing like being a pastor. It's almost just like being a pimp. But he allowed that to stop his calling. He could have changed it.

And all you had to do was to pander to the women's emotions. Oh, my gosh. So my father was a barber, very popular in Detroit, so he cut a lot of the pimps' hair back then. Wow. And a lot of them would tell him, big O, man, nothing like being a pastor. It's almost just like being a pimp. But he allowed that to stop his calling. He could have changed it.

But because he was just a masculine male, my father was a provider. He would work 12, 13-hour days, come home, wore out. At the end of his life, he couldn't walk. He had Parkinson's disease. My mother worried to death. He worked to death. So those are two extremes that I learned from. And I said, you know, I'm not going to be either.

But because he was just a masculine male, my father was a provider. He would work 12, 13-hour days, come home, wore out. At the end of his life, he couldn't walk. He had Parkinson's disease. My mother worried to death. He worked to death. So those are two extremes that I learned from. And I said, you know, I'm not going to be either.

I learned from my dad to make sure I take a rest, take rest in between work. If you don't take a break, I often say you eventually break. And with my mom, the brain wasn't meant to hold the trauma she experienced. My grandfather was lynched. Her first marriage was abusive. Then my brother gets murdered. So all of this she couldn't let go.

I learned from my dad to make sure I take a rest, take rest in between work. If you don't take a break, I often say you eventually break. And with my mom, the brain wasn't meant to hold the trauma she experienced. My grandfather was lynched. Her first marriage was abusive. Then my brother gets murdered. So all of this she couldn't let go.

And what was amazing, brother, she didn't find peace, my mom, until she started to forget. Forget. Yeah, because of dementia, she couldn't remember all of the trauma.

And what was amazing, brother, she didn't find peace, my mom, until she started to forget. Forget. Yeah, because of dementia, she couldn't remember all of the trauma.

That's why the scriptures say, cast your cares upon God. We tend to hold them and grasp and hold and control it. And that's what wears us down, especially as men. We can't rest. We can't let go of the disappointments of the day. We're still trying to work when we should be resting. That's what tomorrow is for. Table those things, find rest, and then get up and hit it hard again.

That's why the scriptures say, cast your cares upon God. We tend to hold them and grasp and hold and control it. And that's what wears us down, especially as men. We can't rest. We can't let go of the disappointments of the day. We're still trying to work when we should be resting. That's what tomorrow is for. Table those things, find rest, and then get up and hit it hard again.

But again, if your whole identity isn't working and performing, we can't sleep. Yeah. And I guess that's one of the greatest blessings of me knowing so many influential individuals. I get to see the side that people don't see. Yeah, of course. And I said, well, money isn't the answer. Being a celebrity isn't the answer. Being a professional athlete or fighter isn't the answer.