Jeff Grant

I know.

And she takes me into this little conference room that's behind the nurse's station, kind of glass wall so you can see in there.

And she sits me down and she takes out this loose leaf book.

She takes me down, she opens it up.

And what it says is...

um the name of the page is bipolar disorder and it lists like all of the things that someone with bipolar disorder has flights of ideas grandiosity it just lists them all and as i'm looking at them i'm going that that's me and they're giving me these meds and it's like oh my god it's like

So, yeah, it's like at this point, I'm like down, like all in.

It's like, yeah, like there's something wrong.

So over those seven weeks, like friends would come visit me.

And I remember once I'm sitting on the corner of the bed and our two best friends came to visit me.

And I'm trying to explain this to them, what I'm explaining to you now.

And I said, look, I must have been crazy.

I must have been, you know, you must have seen I was doing drugs.

You must have seen I was crazy.

Why didn't you ever say anything?

And they looked right at me and they said to me, we must have told you a hundred times.

And I never remembered once.

There was just complete denial.

Right.

That was the first time I saw my daughters since this whole thing happened.