Jeff Grant
π€ SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
But they do have me on on psych meds.
And at the time, I'm guessing it was lithium, but it was something.
And I bolt upright, like in the middle of the night, and I have this revelation because, you know, I'm in a bedroom there, but, you know, these bedrooms are proof.
And they had me on 15-minute checks, which means every 15 minutes they got a check on me.
I don't know if you've ever seen a proof room, but like there's no hard edges.
You know, breakaway, you know, breakaway hangers, everything.
And I bolt up in the middle of the night and it's like this revelation comes over me like that all these years where I thought people were doing things to hurt me or the world was against me, I was really the one who was doing the bad things.
I was the one who was hurting them.
And I'm like, it's like not computing.
I'm like, what, what?
And I start crying.
And I realized that my brain is just not functioning right.
And I'm crying and I run down the hall.
This is in the middle of the night.
And I run to the nurse's station.
I'm crying.
And I say to this nurse, I said, you know, I was the one who was hurting everybody.
They weren't hurting me.
I'm like babbling.
And she puts her arm around me and she said, I know, dear.