Jeff Grant

But they do have me on on psych meds.

And at the time, I'm guessing it was lithium, but it was something.

And I bolt upright, like in the middle of the night, and I have this revelation because, you know, I'm in a bedroom there, but, you know, these bedrooms are proof.

And they had me on 15-minute checks, which means every 15 minutes they got a check on me.

I don't know if you've ever seen a proof room, but like there's no hard edges.

You know, breakaway, you know, breakaway hangers, everything.

And I bolt up in the middle of the night and it's like this revelation comes over me like that all these years where I thought people were doing things to hurt me or the world was against me, I was really the one who was doing the bad things.

I was the one who was hurting them.

And I'm like, it's like not computing.

I'm like, what, what?

And I start crying.

And I realized that my brain is just not functioning right.

And I'm crying and I run down the hall.

This is in the middle of the night.

And I run to the nurse's station.

I'm crying.

And I say to this nurse, I said, you know, I was the one who was hurting everybody.

They weren't hurting me.

I'm like babbling.

And she puts her arm around me and she said, I know, dear.