Jeff

So it was the end of May, May 29th, and our friend Ellison texted me a screenshot of a text from Jeff saying he was in the emergency room at Cedars-Sinai. I didn't even know he was in Los Angeles. We had not been in touch for some time. And Ellison said, why don't you give it a day or two? I will find out what's going on. I'll let you know. And I said, okay.

And then I think maybe five minutes later, I text him. I was not going to be able to wait. I texted him. You know what? Actually, I could...

And then I think maybe five minutes later, I text him. I was not going to be able to wait. I texted him. You know what? Actually, I could...

i could can i pull up you have it i can totally pull them up here okay okay yeah may 29th hey blue falcon do you copy i hear you're in the hospital red sparrow i fear the worst my comrade what are they saying are they keeping you in the hospital when are you supposed to come home And Jeff said, well, everything went sideways so fast.

i could can i pull up you have it i can totally pull them up here okay okay yeah may 29th hey blue falcon do you copy i hear you're in the hospital red sparrow i fear the worst my comrade what are they saying are they keeping you in the hospital when are you supposed to come home And Jeff said, well, everything went sideways so fast.

I came here feeling more or less okay, but everything got worse day by day until I couldn't really function. And there was some more about how he was feeling. And then I wish I could say I'm not scared.

I came here feeling more or less okay, but everything got worse day by day until I couldn't really function. And there was some more about how he was feeling. And then I wish I could say I'm not scared.

What I felt was I couldn't believe I had let so much time go by. Yeah. without us being in each other's lives. And that was that same night that I texted him, I really do miss you and wish we were talking and sharing all year. That's him. That's Jeff. I'm sorry. We will have a lot to catch up on. And Jeff said, I'm sorry too, love. And to that I said, maybe we should finally fuck.

What I felt was I couldn't believe I had let so much time go by. Yeah. without us being in each other's lives. And that was that same night that I texted him, I really do miss you and wish we were talking and sharing all year. That's him. That's Jeff. I'm sorry. We will have a lot to catch up on. And Jeff said, I'm sorry too, love. And to that I said, maybe we should finally fuck.

why and i truly mean this like why now did you mean that maybe we should just fuck i meant it why i meant it i i think i i just knew like all of this was just ridiculous i think i knew that i wanted to for a long time but i couldn't i couldn't go there

why and i truly mean this like why now did you mean that maybe we should just fuck i meant it why i meant it i i think i i just knew like all of this was just ridiculous i think i knew that i wanted to for a long time but i couldn't i couldn't go there

He looked really handsome. He was thin, kind of haggard. so handsome and we just hugged I just like fell into his arms and he was just holding me yeah I think I knew from the moment I saw him at LAX that this was something was different and we were going to be together together Even though he had been sick, it was like he had gotten us this really cute Airbnb.

He looked really handsome. He was thin, kind of haggard. so handsome and we just hugged I just like fell into his arms and he was just holding me yeah I think I knew from the moment I saw him at LAX that this was something was different and we were going to be together together Even though he had been sick, it was like he had gotten us this really cute Airbnb.

And yeah, I went in and there was a queen bed and then a kind of a sofa bed. And I said, do you want to sleep in the big bed with you? And he said, yeah, I need you to be the big spoon. And he said, I feel really scared. But when you're holding my hand, I don't feel scared. So we got into bed and I just could feel like he felt so warm and his skin was so smooth.

And yeah, I went in and there was a queen bed and then a kind of a sofa bed. And I said, do you want to sleep in the big bed with you? And he said, yeah, I need you to be the big spoon. And he said, I feel really scared. But when you're holding my hand, I don't feel scared. So we got into bed and I just could feel like he felt so warm and his skin was so smooth.

I just knew I was like, I'm not going to resist this anymore. So yeah, I took my nightgown off. I cuddled right up. And as I had always suspected, he was game. I remember him saying, like, oh, I'm so curious now.

I just knew I was like, I'm not going to resist this anymore. So yeah, I took my nightgown off. I cuddled right up. And as I had always suspected, he was game. I remember him saying, like, oh, I'm so curious now.

And he's just like, I think we both were just so curious to explore each other's bodies as a person you've known for almost two decades, but, you know, had never seen completely naked, had never done these things or touched these parts. And now we were, and it was very comfortable, very easy, very different than any sex I've ever had with anybody ever before.

And he's just like, I think we both were just so curious to explore each other's bodies as a person you've known for almost two decades, but, you know, had never seen completely naked, had never done these things or touched these parts. And now we were, and it was very comfortable, very easy, very different than any sex I've ever had with anybody ever before.

How was it different than any sex you'd had before? I didn't feel self-conscious. I didn't feel worried. I didn't feel like I had to be somebody else or, you know, be cute for him or be anything other than who I was. We just wanted to be close. It was truly like we had been apart for so long. Yeah. And we loved each other so much. And I was so worried and he was so scared. And...