Jeff

Like I can't, you know, it's like, I don't care if I'm mad at him. But then I would be so turned on that I had to just take care of it myself. Yeah. So I would masturbate and then get up. By the time I was like having my coffee, I was like, you know what? It's fine. I don't need to call him.

Like I can't, you know, it's like, I don't care if I'm mad at him. But then I would be so turned on that I had to just take care of it myself. Yeah. So I would masturbate and then get up. By the time I was like having my coffee, I was like, you know what? It's fine. I don't need to call him.

It didn't exactly, only because we always kind of went in and out of hanging out every day and we'd be caught up in our separate things. So I never, never thought that we wouldn't come back together. I felt like I was his person. I was his just life partner, just doing life together, including when we were mad at each other.

It didn't exactly, only because we always kind of went in and out of hanging out every day and we'd be caught up in our separate things. So I never, never thought that we wouldn't come back together. I felt like I was his person. I was his just life partner, just doing life together, including when we were mad at each other.

Mostly me mad at him, but... I also think there was an element of that the tension was building between us, that I think the pretend sex was sort of a... The pretend sex and the sex dreams, it was kind of all heading toward this, our friendship is becoming something else.

Mostly me mad at him, but... I also think there was an element of that the tension was building between us, that I think the pretend sex was sort of a... The pretend sex and the sex dreams, it was kind of all heading toward this, our friendship is becoming something else.

So it was the end of May, May 29th, and our friend Ellison texted me a screenshot of a text from Jeff saying he was in the emergency room at Cedars-Sinai. I didn't even know he was in Los Angeles. We had not been in touch for some time. And Ellison said, why don't you give it a day or two? I will find out what's going on. I'll let you know. And I said, okay.

So it was the end of May, May 29th, and our friend Ellison texted me a screenshot of a text from Jeff saying he was in the emergency room at Cedars-Sinai. I didn't even know he was in Los Angeles. We had not been in touch for some time. And Ellison said, why don't you give it a day or two? I will find out what's going on. I'll let you know. And I said, okay.

And then I think maybe five minutes later, I text him. I was not going to be able to wait. I texted him. You know what? Actually, I could...

And then I think maybe five minutes later, I text him. I was not going to be able to wait. I texted him. You know what? Actually, I could...

i could can i pull up you have it i can totally pull them up here okay okay yeah may 29th hey blue falcon do you copy i hear you're in the hospital red sparrow i fear the worst my comrade what are they saying are they keeping you in the hospital when are you supposed to come home And Jeff said, well, everything went sideways so fast.

i could can i pull up you have it i can totally pull them up here okay okay yeah may 29th hey blue falcon do you copy i hear you're in the hospital red sparrow i fear the worst my comrade what are they saying are they keeping you in the hospital when are you supposed to come home And Jeff said, well, everything went sideways so fast.

I came here feeling more or less okay, but everything got worse day by day until I couldn't really function. And there was some more about how he was feeling. And then I wish I could say I'm not scared.

I came here feeling more or less okay, but everything got worse day by day until I couldn't really function. And there was some more about how he was feeling. And then I wish I could say I'm not scared.

What I felt was I couldn't believe I had let so much time go by. Yeah. without us being in each other's lives. And that was that same night that I texted him, I really do miss you and wish we were talking and sharing all year. That's him. That's Jeff. I'm sorry. We will have a lot to catch up on. And Jeff said, I'm sorry too, love. And to that I said, maybe we should finally fuck.

What I felt was I couldn't believe I had let so much time go by. Yeah. without us being in each other's lives. And that was that same night that I texted him, I really do miss you and wish we were talking and sharing all year. That's him. That's Jeff. I'm sorry. We will have a lot to catch up on. And Jeff said, I'm sorry too, love. And to that I said, maybe we should finally fuck.

why and i truly mean this like why now did you mean that maybe we should just fuck i meant it why i meant it i i think i i just knew like all of this was just ridiculous i think i knew that i wanted to for a long time but i couldn't i couldn't go there

why and i truly mean this like why now did you mean that maybe we should just fuck i meant it why i meant it i i think i i just knew like all of this was just ridiculous i think i knew that i wanted to for a long time but i couldn't i couldn't go there

He looked really handsome. He was thin, kind of haggard. so handsome and we just hugged I just like fell into his arms and he was just holding me yeah I think I knew from the moment I saw him at LAX that this was something was different and we were going to be together together Even though he had been sick, it was like he had gotten us this really cute Airbnb.

He looked really handsome. He was thin, kind of haggard. so handsome and we just hugged I just like fell into his arms and he was just holding me yeah I think I knew from the moment I saw him at LAX that this was something was different and we were going to be together together Even though he had been sick, it was like he had gotten us this really cute Airbnb.