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And yeah, I went in and there was a queen bed and then a kind of a sofa bed. And I said, do you want to sleep in the big bed with you? And he said, yeah, I need you to be the big spoon. And he said, I feel really scared. But when you're holding my hand, I don't feel scared. So we got into bed and I just could feel like he felt so warm and his skin was so smooth.
And yeah, I went in and there was a queen bed and then a kind of a sofa bed. And I said, do you want to sleep in the big bed with you? And he said, yeah, I need you to be the big spoon. And he said, I feel really scared. But when you're holding my hand, I don't feel scared. So we got into bed and I just could feel like he felt so warm and his skin was so smooth.
I just knew I was like, I'm not going to resist this anymore. So yeah, I took my nightgown off. I cuddled right up. And as I had always suspected, he was game. I remember him saying, like, oh, I'm so curious now.
I just knew I was like, I'm not going to resist this anymore. So yeah, I took my nightgown off. I cuddled right up. And as I had always suspected, he was game. I remember him saying, like, oh, I'm so curious now.
And he's just like, I think we both were just so curious to explore each other's bodies as a person you've known for almost two decades, but, you know, had never seen completely naked, had never done these things or touched these parts. And now we were, and it was very comfortable, very easy, very different than any sex I've ever had with anybody ever before.
And he's just like, I think we both were just so curious to explore each other's bodies as a person you've known for almost two decades, but, you know, had never seen completely naked, had never done these things or touched these parts. And now we were, and it was very comfortable, very easy, very different than any sex I've ever had with anybody ever before.
How was it different than any sex you'd had before? I didn't feel self-conscious. I didn't feel worried. I didn't feel like I had to be somebody else or, you know, be cute for him or be anything other than who I was. We just wanted to be close. It was truly like we had been apart for so long. Yeah. And we loved each other so much. And I was so worried and he was so scared. And...
How was it different than any sex you'd had before? I didn't feel self-conscious. I didn't feel worried. I didn't feel like I had to be somebody else or, you know, be cute for him or be anything other than who I was. We just wanted to be close. It was truly like we had been apart for so long. Yeah. And we loved each other so much. And I was so worried and he was so scared. And...
Having sex with him that night was just like, we wanted to get as close as we could to each other and finally know each other as well as we could.
Having sex with him that night was just like, we wanted to get as close as we could to each other and finally know each other as well as we could.
We already knew and loved each other so much. It was sort of like our bodies were just catching up to where we already had been emotionally. But like physically, maybe there were things that he had talked about that I was like, oh, I see now. Things, skills he had talked about having.
We already knew and loved each other so much. It was sort of like our bodies were just catching up to where we already had been emotionally. But like physically, maybe there were things that he had talked about that I was like, oh, I see now. Things, skills he had talked about having.
His stamina was probably not as great. Did he talk about it? Did he say like, did he apologize? He said the next day, he said, I wish we had done this before I got sick because then you would have really seen what I can do. And it was when we got back home, he wasn't well enough.
His stamina was probably not as great. Did he talk about it? Did he say like, did he apologize? He said the next day, he said, I wish we had done this before I got sick because then you would have really seen what I can do. And it was when we got back home, he wasn't well enough.
Yeah, I think so. I mean, we didn't officially say, but yeah. So we flew back to New York. We got home in the middle of the night drunk. And then I went and spent the afternoon with him. I picked up some groceries for him. He seemed all right. So I went home and texted with him. And at that point, he said, you know, you can come over anytime.
Yeah, I think so. I mean, we didn't officially say, but yeah. So we flew back to New York. We got home in the middle of the night drunk. And then I went and spent the afternoon with him. I picked up some groceries for him. He seemed all right. So I went home and texted with him. And at that point, he said, you know, you can come over anytime.
And I wish that I had, but I really wanted to think that he was going to be okay and I would go over in the morning. And then... I didn't sleep with my phone next to me. I should have. I had missed text from him at 3 a.m., 5 a.m. He said, are you up? Hey, are you awake? And then at 7, he said, whenever you get this, my neighbor's taking me to the emergency room.
And I wish that I had, but I really wanted to think that he was going to be okay and I would go over in the morning. And then... I didn't sleep with my phone next to me. I should have. I had missed text from him at 3 a.m., 5 a.m. He said, are you up? Hey, are you awake? And then at 7, he said, whenever you get this, my neighbor's taking me to the emergency room.