Jennifer Bray

So I'm like, you know what?

I'm going to share mine.

situation with your friend you know it's so powerful and did you know actually that is if you can succeed at doing that in a novel like that's it it's getting people when you read a book that's the whole point I think of fiction and and reading and connecting with characters is that moment of oh you too yeah you as well oh because I think that totally and as a reader there is nothing like that feeling when you're reading and you have that moment yourself saying yeah

Totally.

And it is, it's the feeling scene, like actually not in the way that I'm scared of, but in the way that you connect to somebody else.

Yeah.

And actually the, I suppose if there was one thing that I've always wanted, not wanted to, I don't want other people to feel terrible, but

After what happened, I didn't realize until I started drilling down into why I'm so scared of publicity, like what's going on.

And I had to go, what is it?

Like, why am I so worried?

And I realized, I read this book by Gerry Hussey.

I think I'm going to get the order of it wrong, but if I am, I can, I will.

And in the book, he talks about

facing challenges but he talks about you have to change your inner voice you have to change the critic inside your mind and he challenges the reader to listen so I started doing this at the start of this year listening and I realized the voice inside my head as I'm not saying I've got voices but you know we all have an inner inner voice was really really nasty about myself like I was telling myself horrible things about myself for years now and not challenging it so like even I was in like

Miami actually I got to go on an amazing press trip at the start of the year and I walked past this mirror and I caught like a sight of my face and I heard myself say my god you are so disgusting and you are so frumpy look at you and I actually because I was reading his book I actually went wait a minute that's what he's talking about yeah so I stopped and was like oh

I wouldn't let someone else talk to me.

No, exactly.

What on earth?

So I think for me, it's been really revealing of going, I have been talking whack to myself for ages.

Now I'm going to stop that.