Jess

All the guys knew. You know, the guy code, you don't say anything. And I don't have girlfriends. I don't like women. They don't like me. All my friends were guys. So not only was I betrayed by him, I was betrayed by all of our friends. And that's how I felt. So, like, I just felt like the whole world had shit on me. And I just downed that bottle of NyQuil and fell asleep.

But I didn't do anything after that. Like, I woke up and I was like, what the fuck did I just do? And that was it. I was good after that. I didn't do any drugs or anything.

But I didn't do anything after that. Like, I woke up and I was like, what the fuck did I just do? And that was it. I was good after that. I didn't do any drugs or anything.

But I didn't do anything after that. Like, I woke up and I was like, what the fuck did I just do? And that was it. I was good after that. I didn't do any drugs or anything.

sometimes um of course i had a great lesson in manipulation because my mom was on crack and that's what crackheads do so i had a very early on you know she taught me how to steal you know stuff like that so i would that's that's natural for me it was normal um which actually helped because i could see through his bullshit a lot um because i could just see things that i saw in my mom and um

sometimes um of course i had a great lesson in manipulation because my mom was on crack and that's what crackheads do so i had a very early on you know she taught me how to steal you know stuff like that so i would that's that's natural for me it was normal um which actually helped because i could see through his bullshit a lot um because i could just see things that i saw in my mom and um

sometimes um of course i had a great lesson in manipulation because my mom was on crack and that's what crackheads do so i had a very early on you know she taught me how to steal you know stuff like that so i would that's that's natural for me it was normal um which actually helped because i could see through his bullshit a lot um because i could just see things that i saw in my mom and um

I tried so hard to not be like my mom that I tried not to manipulate people. I tried to do the opposite. Even though I was an addict, I would try not to do stuff like that. Even though, you know, in the end, I was full-blown crackhead and it did happen. Especially with Ben, too. He's so intelligent. It's so easy for him to manipulate people.

I tried so hard to not be like my mom that I tried not to manipulate people. I tried to do the opposite. Even though I was an addict, I would try not to do stuff like that. Even though, you know, in the end, I was full-blown crackhead and it did happen. Especially with Ben, too. He's so intelligent. It's so easy for him to manipulate people.

I tried so hard to not be like my mom that I tried not to manipulate people. I tried to do the opposite. Even though I was an addict, I would try not to do stuff like that. Even though, you know, in the end, I was full-blown crackhead and it did happen. Especially with Ben, too. He's so intelligent. It's so easy for him to manipulate people.

And I'm sure there were times when we were manipulating that we didn't even think of it like that.

And I'm sure there were times when we were manipulating that we didn't even think of it like that.

And I'm sure there were times when we were manipulating that we didn't even think of it like that.

I mean, yeah, there was definitely concern in that. And I knew he was, you know, because he was like, you know, you're going to have the baby. And, you know, he would bring all these things up that I didn't have a very happy childhood, you know, obviously from what I just told you. But he did. He did have a perfect childhood.

I mean, yeah, there was definitely concern in that. And I knew he was, you know, because he was like, you know, you're going to have the baby. And, you know, he would bring all these things up that I didn't have a very happy childhood, you know, obviously from what I just told you. But he did. He did have a perfect childhood.

I mean, yeah, there was definitely concern in that. And I knew he was, you know, because he was like, you know, you're going to have the baby. And, you know, he would bring all these things up that I didn't have a very happy childhood, you know, obviously from what I just told you. But he did. He did have a perfect childhood.

And he kept throwing out there, you know, we can do this, and we can have this baby, and we can get married, and you see I make money, we can have a big house, and I see you work your ass off. We can do this. We can do this together. And I think that was his way of, I guess, manipulating me into staying and working it out.

And he kept throwing out there, you know, we can do this, and we can have this baby, and we can get married, and you see I make money, we can have a big house, and I see you work your ass off. We can do this. We can do this together. And I think that was his way of, I guess, manipulating me into staying and working it out.

And he kept throwing out there, you know, we can do this, and we can have this baby, and we can get married, and you see I make money, we can have a big house, and I see you work your ass off. We can do this. We can do this together. And I think that was his way of, I guess, manipulating me into staying and working it out.

And at the time, I wanted to slit his throat, but I'm very happy that I did stay, and I'm glad that little manipulation did stick a little bit.