Jess

He was a good man, but the addiction took over and there's a lot of bad stuff that Maddie had to endure. So when Ben came into the picture, there was a happiness there. Like he was actually a father to her and she loved him and I wasn't so much worried about Maddie. I was worried about getting hurt again. I was worried about the trust issue because I knew I would never be able to trust him again.

He was a good man, but the addiction took over and there's a lot of bad stuff that Maddie had to endure. So when Ben came into the picture, there was a happiness there. Like he was actually a father to her and she loved him and I wasn't so much worried about Maddie. I was worried about getting hurt again. I was worried about the trust issue because I knew I would never be able to trust him again.

He was a good man, but the addiction took over and there's a lot of bad stuff that Maddie had to endure. So when Ben came into the picture, there was a happiness there. Like he was actually a father to her and she loved him and I wasn't so much worried about Maddie. I was worried about getting hurt again. I was worried about the trust issue because I knew I would never be able to trust him again.

And that was actually the problem for years. I didn't trust him. And actually, because that girl... was someone that he met in N.A., and we knew everybody. Like, everybody knew us as the N.A. power couple, you know? So when everybody found out that he cheated on me with another bitch from N.A., like, I was mortified.

And that was actually the problem for years. I didn't trust him. And actually, because that girl... was someone that he met in N.A., and we knew everybody. Like, everybody knew us as the N.A. power couple, you know? So when everybody found out that he cheated on me with another bitch from N.A., like, I was mortified.

And that was actually the problem for years. I didn't trust him. And actually, because that girl... was someone that he met in N.A., and we knew everybody. Like, everybody knew us as the N.A. power couple, you know? So when everybody found out that he cheated on me with another bitch from N.A., like, I was mortified.

I had never met her. Luckily.

I had never met her. Luckily.

I had never met her. Luckily.

Yes. Or I had just graduated for, or graduated, I had just gotten a year clean, I believe. Like, probably a month before this happened. So I was one year clean, first year I'd had clean since I was 13 years old.

Yes. Or I had just graduated for, or graduated, I had just gotten a year clean, I believe. Like, probably a month before this happened. So I was one year clean, first year I'd had clean since I was 13 years old.

Yes. Or I had just graduated for, or graduated, I had just gotten a year clean, I believe. Like, probably a month before this happened. So I was one year clean, first year I'd had clean since I was 13 years old.

Absolutely, yeah. And... Did it? Um... So I didn't go back to heroin. But I remember the night that I found out, I downed a bottle of NyQuil. Knowing I was pregnant and knowing that it might hurt my child, I just wanted to not be alive at that point. And addicts are selfish. And even though I had a year clean, I was still very much a selfish addict. And I got a bottle of NyQuil.

Absolutely, yeah. And... Did it? Um... So I didn't go back to heroin. But I remember the night that I found out, I downed a bottle of NyQuil. Knowing I was pregnant and knowing that it might hurt my child, I just wanted to not be alive at that point. And addicts are selfish. And even though I had a year clean, I was still very much a selfish addict. And I got a bottle of NyQuil.

Absolutely, yeah. And... Did it? Um... So I didn't go back to heroin. But I remember the night that I found out, I downed a bottle of NyQuil. Knowing I was pregnant and knowing that it might hurt my child, I just wanted to not be alive at that point. And addicts are selfish. And even though I had a year clean, I was still very much a selfish addict. And I got a bottle of NyQuil.

And half of me didn't want to keep this baby. Like half of me, I was like, maybe it's just better if I'm just going to drink this bottle of NyQuil and let nature take its course. And he was in jail anyway. Nobody could stop me. And like when I found out, I called Thomas. Thomas denied it. I called Brian Owens. Brian Owens says he didn't know anything about it. I later find out that like,

And half of me didn't want to keep this baby. Like half of me, I was like, maybe it's just better if I'm just going to drink this bottle of NyQuil and let nature take its course. And he was in jail anyway. Nobody could stop me. And like when I found out, I called Thomas. Thomas denied it. I called Brian Owens. Brian Owens says he didn't know anything about it. I later find out that like,

And half of me didn't want to keep this baby. Like half of me, I was like, maybe it's just better if I'm just going to drink this bottle of NyQuil and let nature take its course. And he was in jail anyway. Nobody could stop me. And like when I found out, I called Thomas. Thomas denied it. I called Brian Owens. Brian Owens says he didn't know anything about it. I later find out that like,

All the guys knew. You know, the guy code, you don't say anything. And I don't have girlfriends. I don't like women. They don't like me. All my friends were guys. So not only was I betrayed by him, I was betrayed by all of our friends. And that's how I felt. So, like, I just felt like the whole world had shit on me. And I just downed that bottle of NyQuil and fell asleep.

All the guys knew. You know, the guy code, you don't say anything. And I don't have girlfriends. I don't like women. They don't like me. All my friends were guys. So not only was I betrayed by him, I was betrayed by all of our friends. And that's how I felt. So, like, I just felt like the whole world had shit on me. And I just downed that bottle of NyQuil and fell asleep.