Jessi Draper

This is not healthy.

And I literally left him the next day.

I was like, this can't happen anymore.

That's horrible.

It is.

And like...

I should have done what I did.

I regret it so much.

I just wanna make that so clear for my kids to have to hear about that one day.

I wanna take full responsibility.

But I will say that having your partner blackmail you in that way, it was something I could never get over.

Even after we got back together and went through therapy,

The person that you love the most and should care about you the most, even though you hurt them, should never put you in a situation where you feel like inside you never like you're walking on eggshells and you never know if your life's about to be ruined and they have that power over you.

So that was honestly like something that really ruined us.

And yeah, it was it was traumatizing.

So my first marriage was pretty emotionally abusive, like worse than this one.

And I, again, got married so quickly that I didn't have time to heal from that.

So I think I attracted the same type of person without like realizing.

And I think in my head I was justifying it because I'm like,

Jordan saved me from my other marriage.