Jessi Draper

He's my savior.

That's how I saw him.

He saved me from this dynamic.

So there's no way he's doing this to me.

And then over time, same patterns of what I saw before in my past relationship arised.

And I was like, oh.

But I had never said out loud to anyone.

My friends and family's

my friends and family were aware they knew that he didn't treat me well no one liked him they would bring it up to me but i would just kind of be like that's jordan um but then in season four you see my energy healer um she actually i was doing a session with her and this was the same night of that pilates fight actually and she i sat down and she goes are you safe and i was like what do you mean she goes i just have a feeling i need to ask you and um

I just I told her everything.

And it was the first time I said it out loud.

And that was like the moment also that I was like, I have to leave him.

And that's why we separated last year, because I'm like, as I'm saying out loud, she goes, Jesse, this is emotional abuse.

And I never like it didn't click to me until in that moment.

How did it change for you after you said it out loud?

It was like a weight had fallen off where I was like, and it was almost like something clicked and I was like seeing it clearly for the first time.

And I was like, oh, like I just kind of like was like, that's Jordan's personality.

Like this marriage is hard, you know, like which it is.

But that's how I justified it.

But when she literally I had someone saying this is emotional abuse.