Jessi

I think that what caused it for me, and again, this is not to create excuses, but just to have it be out there, is it's just not feeling like a priority.

It's just not feeling like that love was shown.

It felt like it was a cry for attention, a cry for help, because it's like you're over here.

It only got worse once the show came about.

It was just not feeling like being enough.

A lot of times, yeah, we were in therapy and there were things that she wanted me to change and I would make a lot of those changes.

Like what?

It would be like, you know, not being so aggressive about things or not being controlling, you know?

And control for me is like, when I don't feel like I'm in control, it feels like I'm powerless.

Right.

And those are all things that I've, I've again learned in therapy, but I would make a lot of these changes and then Jesse would be like frozen.

Like stop.

Not because she's like out to get me or, or anything like that.

It's just sometimes in those moments, I think that it was hard for her to change learned habits.

Like Jesse's a workaholic.

I think at that time it was, at that time for sure.

I think I hit a point when I kind of just like threw my hands up in the air and I'm like, why do I want to make all these efforts if you're not going to meet me with a spec at the time?

Because I gave, I gave, I'll be honest, like I gave it a lot of time.

It was very much, you know, there, there was, there's definitely something underlying that, that she needed to work on.

And she's been working on those, those things.