Jessi

That's what I meant by the emasculated feeling, right?

I wasn't so worried in the moment about what I had done to lead to that point.

It was just selfishness, right?

So that's what I meant about being emasculated.

Probably right before, maybe like the six months leading up to it.

One of the things the show doesn't really touch on is, you know, I was very successful in what I did before this.

So I used to work for my friend's solar company out here in Southern California.

Made really good money, but it required me to spend, you know, 15, 16 weeks a year here, which is not very much considering...

how good the money was and that was really tough for more so my kids just because like you know gone for a week and a half back for a week gone for two weeks whatever it might be um specifically during the summertime mostly and jesse began to have obviously so much success even before the show that it didn't make it didn't matter how much money i was making it didn't make sense for me to be gone and to leave her while she's creating building an empire

when she needs help raising the kids.

And I think that there was some resentment, for sure, having to give up my career working with my friends while she could go build this empire.

Because she made it clear that it was not something we were building together.

And I tried to actually do that.

How can I help you?

She would use things and say things to me at times that made me feel justified to act out the way that I did.

She would say, like, this is my thing.

You know, you go do your own thing.

She didn't want to build it together.

Like a piece of shit.

For sure.