Jessica

I had met Barbara later in life so that Pam was just always my friend's girlfriend as opposed to having to maintain both of these friendships.

Does that make sense?

Like, and to me, it's not like pick me.

It's more like, I'd like to step away from this and like,

Yeah, I understand that.

Yeah.

I think the point of that statement was more like, I have friends that I've been friends with for a really long time.

And then I'm obviously friendly with their partners, but there's no expectations in either direction with... Yeah.

It doesn't change the history.

So I guess like the reason that I...

wrote in is i'm curious like barb has really wanted me to reach out to pam and i and i haven't done it and part of the reason i haven't done it is just because like my life was like really turned upside down in the last years in a lot of ways and like i just haven't had the the want to do something that i don't want to do when i'm like not sleeping at night because of like other stress you know what i mean

And so it's just been like, it's like, I wouldn't mean it anyway.

So I just, I don't know, maybe it sounds harsh, but I'm just like, if I don't know if I can pay my rent this month, I'm not going to like have this conversation.

Things have kind of settled in for me.

Things are finally better.

You know, the SSRIs are working.

I'm curious, like, do you think that it's too late at this point?

And if it's not, how should I go about having these conversations with these two people?

No, I didn't have a hard time.

I was just, I was incredibly bullied.