Joe Hudson

So I'm gonna actually like see what it's like to feel that anger, feel the sadness, feel the joy.

I'm gonna do all that for a week and I'm gonna see, does my life change?

So I wouldn't take anybody's words as gospel.

I would say, what's the experiment I could run?

Which was, I think, the biggest benefit.

And so I just started running these experiments everywhere that I could find.

And I, you know, really spent seven years like in a room meditating most of the time.

That was like most of my experience.

And...

It was like, you know, it's like meditation is porn for perfectionists.

You know what I mean?

It's like it was just me trying to be fucking perfect.

That's really what it was.

And that finally like started dwindling away.

Pretty soon I wasn't trying to manage my experience anymore.

Not pretty soon, like four years in.

I wasn't trying to manage my experience.

I wasn't trying to get there anymore or I was trying to get there less often.

this question arose in me, like, what am I essentially?

That question was 10 times a day, just jumped right into my consciousness.