John Robbins

Just like anxious and angry and resentful and bitter and driven and in self.

And I thought, oh, maybe I need to go wherever they go.

Hey, me, I need some of that.

And I went to a meeting the next day and haven't had a drink since.

I think really a lot of confusion.

I mean, if anyone is using a 12-step approach to try and get sober, don't worry if you don't understand it all at once, because it is quite a lot.

And you're also hearing lots of different things from lots of different people at lots of different stages of sobriety.

And I really just focused on

I feel safe in this room with these people.

I feel they know what it's like to be in my head.

I don't understand what they're talking about, but I'm gonna make sure I come back tomorrow.

And in the meantime, anything I do which isn't drinking alcohol is okay.

If I eat a kilo of pasta, I was big into the kilo of pasta scene.

If I go to bed at seven in the evening,

If whatever it is, if I watch 10 episodes or something, if I am getting to sleep sober, that's all I need to worry about.

And I was crying a lot.

I was, my head was all over the place because I had no way of feeling without alcohol.

Not just feeling bad, like success.

You know, you've been nominated for an award.

You've got this job.