Jordan Crowder

But it turned into just a straight up pure physical addiction.

And it grabbed me and never let me go.

And I felt like at times that my body was literally commandeered by, you know, it's almost like if you say you're driving a car and you hop out and you leave it running with the keys in.

In a bad part of town, you never know who's going to hop in.

I felt at times like my body was taken over and commandeered by opportunistic spirits, I guess you'd say.

A lot of weird stuff happened, man.

But now I know.

I can even rationalize and explain.

I can explain what happened.

I can explain all these things from this other point of view now, and I never would have had that opportunity.

intellectual ability at that time, you know, I was just, I was just going with the flow of life, I had no direction, I had no purpose, I had no control over my own life.

And now I do have 100% total control over my life.

And that would not have happened if I hadn't gone through this experience.

Yeah.

You know, like the first thing I thought was really cool.

So I was learning patterning and I'll get into like kind of the crazier stuff, but I meant to touch on this earlier.

I was learning patterning, which is the Monroe Institute way of manifestation is basically realizing that your thoughts manifest.

affect reality, sometimes create reality, but at least affect physical matter reality.

And you can create patterns.

You can place new patterns into the system and those will actually materialize.