Jordan

And then when we got into real life, that's not the case.

But then it's like even production, they're the ones, well, maybe a combination, but I think they're the ones planning all these things.

And so it's like, how do I even really know?

Does Jordan, does he plan dates?

Are we going to go on nice dinners?

Are we going to do the things?

And so I think I felt a little bit like I'm a big believer that

I always want to feel like my partner we're dating, whether we're two weeks in or 20 years in.

And I still want to be courted and, you know, romanticize a little bit.

And I just I was having a hard time knowing if that was the case.

It's valid.

I mean, I think obvious reasons.

I mean, what you don't see, I think our breakup like on camera kind of came out a little out of the blue.

I mean, I know we had the closet conversation.

It was like the week before you're supposed to get married.

It's supposed to be like a black week.

You're not really supposed to see each other.

But I think they knew like everyone was like, because I think one day she was in and then I would kind of be like, well, you weren't in yesterday.

So now I'm not in.

And then we were kind of flippy floppy.