Josh Pais

I had so many thoughts in my head of like, I can't do this.

I've made a mistake.

What am I going to do?

So much.

And it was just...

disastrous auditions because I would just go in there and be, you know, uh, I couldn't, my whole system was jumbled.

And, uh,

if I can tell just a quick story about my dad, he was a theoretical physicist who worked with Einstein, um, and Niels Bohr and Oppenheimer and all those guys.

And when I was a little kid, I asked him about what his job was and he's, and I was sitting next to a table.

You may have heard this.

I've told this many times, but I was sitting next to a table and he said, and I said,

I said, what is your job?

And he said, you see that table?

I said, yes.

Do you see your knee?

Yes.

He said, the smallest part of that table and the smallest part of your knee are the same things, atoms.

And he said, that's what I explore, the building blocks of the universe.

So I reflected on that story, that incident that happened when I was six, when I was, you know, in this panic of like, can I even be an actor?

And I started to think, well, if my body is made out of atoms, then emotions must somehow be integrated with atoms because it's all happening in this structure, right?