Josh

your health and if something doesn't feel right like within yourself and your body like don't push through because we're conditioned to just think oh we've got to get on with it stop complaining do go see your doctor and if you're not happy what they say go see another doctor and again just listen to your body we and just stop pushing yourself and ourselves constantly

The podcast that I had originally meant to do today was going to be an episode with my mum as she did, like, her first official review of our season.

Now it's airing in the UK and I think she's, like, two and a half weeks into it.

But obviously, like, we weren't going to do that.

Just the timing didn't feel right and the energy and... Yeah, but overnight... I really am losing my voice today because I haven't slept.

But, yeah, overnight, following...

the Mel News and then after like doing that tribute post and episode I really just couldn't sleep I think I've had like one hour I was then thinking of my mum a lot and my family back in the UK and especially my Nana who was one of my favourite people in the world ever and he's probably the person closest to me who I have lost to cancer in my life and like

This morning, I did still phone my mum and that's something I wanted to talk to her about.

And as we caught up on the phone this morning, mum back at home in the UK, getting ready for bed and me walking through a park, just getting some fresh air.

I did hit record on that phone call.

Like, I wasn't even sure why in the moment, but I suppose I had this thought of like, hey, maybe someone could gain something from this chat as we both reflect again on Mel, but also just that desire to,

and reminder to live every day while reflecting how cancer and loss has impacted us.

I haven't edited the phone call and I'm just going to let it play out as is and hopefully someone will gain something from that.

I think we're all kind of in the same boat a bit today where...

Like, we're all talking about this.

We're all thinking about this.

We're all thinking about our own lives.

We're all thinking about the people we've lost.

And there's so much to say, but also there's not much to say other than it's just sad.

And that was kind of the essence of the call with my mum as I kind of was telling her points, I suppose I've touched on in this part, about the things I'm going to take away from this just sad situation.