Kail Lowry

Like it all kind of feels like you're damned if you do, damned if you don't.

I always worry about that though, because I have lived so long in some level of a spotlight that I, my first thought every single day, every conversation I have, every, when I go out in public is how will this be perceived?

And that's like,

Honestly, it's like PTSD.

Like I would argue that it's kind of similar to that because I have been conditioned this way for so long.

How will this be perceived?

Even though I know that it happened this way, it's going to be shown this way.

And so how will this be perceived?

And so that's gotten, actually, it has hurt me to think that way as well because I'll be on the defense right off rip and then it doesn't get perceived well.

I'm already thinking five steps ahead about how it will be perceived.

Well, in some ways, I think it makes me more myself because I'll call myself out before anyone else can.

I'm scared for things to come out in a way that I don't have control over.

So I'll get on TikTok and talk about how I shit myself.

Nobody in public is about to get on TikTok and talk about how Kale shit herself in public.

And they saw it because I already said it.

You're not about to embarrass me.

So that's kind of like my thought.

I love that.

No, but like, that's kind of how I think is like, if I am more authentic, nobody can, it's kind of like Eminem in eight mile where he's like rapping about all the things that are awful about how he grew up.

Right.