Kail Lowry

I feel like

eight or nine years old so i had kind of had my awakening because like it's kind of like when i woke up to who i was and have my own personality you know i don't remember i don't have a lot of memories before eight nine years old right and it's kind of like i woke up on my like eighth or ninth birthday so i don't have a lot of memories before that i remember like blowing all the candles on a cake and kind of like i remember like doing it i remember waking up i was like i know my brother

I know my mom, I know my aunt, I know everybody who's in this house for my birthday party, but like, I don't know who I am.

I was like, who the hell am I?

You know, so I'm like, I had to model my brother for so long because he was just like, he's just normal, right?

He's just him.

I knew that from a very young age, from like eight, nine years old.

I was just like, I knew I just didn't fit in.

I knew I didn't feel right, right?

But like, my brother was cool.

I was like, I have a brother.

I can just act like him.

So I would just act like him.

Yeah, 100%.

And my mom, I think my mom knew that.

We used to dress like, my mom was just like, I got twin boys, I can dress them like.

So she used to dress us like.

But I think she knew that because when she put us in school, she wanted me to kind of go on my own.

So she made sure that she used to tell the teachers to not put us in the same class.

So from a very young age, I never, and this is me just realizing this in therapy from a few years ago, I never had a class with my brother, all through school.