Karah

He wasn't truly there, but that was the only time.

And I just remember looking that whole day at his funeral, just feeling so sorry for this man.

So sorry for him.

Because just like that, like it happened all just like that.

Like how he...

I mean, his life was just over and he never got a fucking fair chance.

He never got a fair chance.

He never... He was just... The odds were against him to the core.

It seemed like every single time.

And he just did not... And that bothers me.

And I don't know why it even still bothers me to this day.

But I'm like...

He was still a person.

He still deserved to be, to dress like a decent person besides a khaki or a green or an orange suit 24-7, you know?

And I just, I'm just trying to get through that part still and we're coming up on the one year.

And I truly think, let me back up.

I did not make amends meet with my dad.

That's still something that I'm going through and something that's gonna take a long time for me to go through, I think.

Cause there's a lot of guilt I'm holding in and because I didn't have to be a bitch to him.

No, no, I don't.