Kate Cassidy

It was, you know, I would just scroll on TikTok and it was my entire video after video, Liam and Just, I think the videos of seeing him happy and with a smile and just good memories and good moments made me more sad because I realized, like, he's never going to smile again. And he's never, it's just an end to creating memories. any future memories. It was harder for me to see those videos.

But yeah, the morning after was just numb. I think with grief, it comes in so many different emotions. I've never lost anybody extremely close to me. I've never been to a funeral before. And the fact that I'm 25 years old and the first funeral that I have to attend is my partner's funeral just still doesn't sit right with me. And it's just... mind boggling to even think that.

But yeah, the morning after was just numb. I think with grief, it comes in so many different emotions. I've never lost anybody extremely close to me. I've never been to a funeral before. And the fact that I'm 25 years old and the first funeral that I have to attend is my partner's funeral just still doesn't sit right with me. And it's just... mind boggling to even think that.

I remember what I was trying on my funeral dress. I remember just trying it on, looking in the mirror. And I just remember thinking in my head, I just started bawling because I was like, I was supposed to be trying on my wedding dress. I wasn't supposed to be wearing a black dress. I was supposed to be wearing a white dress and Liam was supposed to be here with me, you know?

I remember what I was trying on my funeral dress. I remember just trying it on, looking in the mirror. And I just remember thinking in my head, I just started bawling because I was like, I was supposed to be trying on my wedding dress. I wasn't supposed to be wearing a black dress. I was supposed to be wearing a white dress and Liam was supposed to be here with me, you know?

So it was really hard to accept this reality of knowing he's not here anymore.

So it was really hard to accept this reality of knowing he's not here anymore.

I mean, for me, I think that most couples, of course, why would you be with somebody if you don't expect to have a future with them? It's something we definitely spoke about and something that we knew when the time was right that we wanted to develop and build this life together. And I think we were really on our way of doing that by moving to America. getting this new house.

I mean, for me, I think that most couples, of course, why would you be with somebody if you don't expect to have a future with them? It's something we definitely spoke about and something that we knew when the time was right that we wanted to develop and build this life together. And I think we were really on our way of doing that by moving to America. getting this new house.

I was starting to think of buying some new decorations and all these things and having a dog. And we were just kind of on our way there. And to have that ripped from you is just in one day. I mean, you really never know what tomorrow will bring. And I think ever since October 16th, I live in a fear of, I don't know what tomorrow will bring ever.

I was starting to think of buying some new decorations and all these things and having a dog. And we were just kind of on our way there. And to have that ripped from you is just in one day. I mean, you really never know what tomorrow will bring. And I think ever since October 16th, I live in a fear of, I don't know what tomorrow will bring ever.

But everything just got completely ripped away from me in that one day.

But everything just got completely ripped away from me in that one day.

I think at the end of the day, you need to listen and trust your heart because grief comes in so many waves, so many different emotions. You're going to wake up. You're going to feel numb. You're going to wake up. You're going to feel sad. You're going to feel angry.

I think at the end of the day, you need to listen and trust your heart because grief comes in so many waves, so many different emotions. You're going to wake up. You're going to feel numb. You're going to wake up. You're going to feel sad. You're going to feel angry.

You're going to feel one day you're going to wake up and you're going to laugh and you're going to just think of good moments you had. And then you're going to find yourself just this laugh turning into this hysterical cry. And I think that grief is something that you never know what to expect and And it hits everybody so differently.

You're going to feel one day you're going to wake up and you're going to laugh and you're going to just think of good moments you had. And then you're going to find yourself just this laugh turning into this hysterical cry. And I think that grief is something that you never know what to expect and And it hits everybody so differently.

So I think the best, you know, some advice that I would give, just some general advice would be to always trust your gut. Some things for me might not work for other people. I think keeping a consistent, of course, schedule routine. And I'm not saying waking up in the morning from 9 a.m., having a strategic plan throughout the day, and then not getting home until 8 p.m. Of course not.

So I think the best, you know, some advice that I would give, just some general advice would be to always trust your gut. Some things for me might not work for other people. I think keeping a consistent, of course, schedule routine. And I'm not saying waking up in the morning from 9 a.m., having a strategic plan throughout the day, and then not getting home until 8 p.m. Of course not.

Your mind needs time to rest and think and heal. But even just if you take one activity per day, it could just be walking, baking, going to the gym, going to applies class. Just any type of small thing, it just helps so much with your headspace. But I think for me, one thing that really has helped me so much and that makes me feel so full of light and love is seeing signs. And I...