Katriona O'Sullivan

How I feel about myself has nothing to do with my body size.

I have something I didn't have before now.

After the band, I went and I was getting sick all the time.

I went back to therapy and I really talked about a lot of things.

What I have now is I can open Facebook or Instagram and I can see the messages about being slimmer or smaller or smoother.

And I'll have a thought, I need to do something.

I'm not good enough.

And now I have a moment after that.

And the moment goes like this, Matt.

Is this decision, the decision to try to shrink yourself or smooth yourself, going to help Katrina get back to that little girl who could cartwheel and play football?

Is this a loving thing to do for your body?

I never had that before.

That's the gift of healing.

There's no perfect arc in this story.

I still doubt.

I still worry that I don't fit.

I'm not small enough.

But now I have a moment and now I have a lot more capacity to say I'm good enough the way I am.

I don't know if any woman ever will feel 100% in their own body.

And I don't know if that's something I'll ever get to.