Kelly

So whatever phone call we have is something to do with Brian too.

She does, you know, talk about other things, but it always goes back to Brian.

And then the effects on me is a lot of anxiety and depression, especially when this first started to happen.

I had dreams of saving Brian.

every single night it would always be a dream about Brian and me having to protect him or save him and a lot of times he would end up being like a baby in the dream or my little brother but yeah I always had to save him and I think it just goes to show

And that's how I feel in reality too.

I just want to make things better and protect him.

But at the same time, I know I can't fix this.

yes exactly and that's what i'm learning now definitely at the beginning it was hard to let that go so i don't have much of a relationship right now with brian i see him on occasions like christmas and holidays holidays but

It's hard to have a relationship because of the trauma I endured from our previous incident.

Because I don't know how Brian sees me.

I still don't.

I don't know exactly if he realizes I'm his sister.

No, he also does not answer texts or calls.

So he doesn't reach out or anything.

At this point, he's at... I don't even know how to explain it.

where he doesn't really know how to converse with people.

I could see where he's...

his thoughts are very unorganized he doesn't know how to he doesn't really like know how to talk to people so even for holidays that we all get together that's that's when we see brian like christmas looks like we get gifts for brian which i love i love gift giving so i love giving him gifts and anyone else but we'll never receive a gift and we accept that and that's

You know, we're not trying to get gifts here from him, but it just looks like him receiving, but not giving back.