Kimbal Musk
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first heard Mar 2024
last heard Mar 2024
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I remember getting into the ambulance.
It was a different feeling of death. It was more... It was more of a, what is going on here? It was more like I can't make sense of what's going on. It was... There was a moment where I got to the hospital and they did this MRI and the doctor comes up to me and says, look, we've done this MRI and so now I'm in the hospital and I'm like, I can't move. But I also don't feel any pain.
So I'm like, it's very confusing. Your body looks like you can move it. Like, look, see how I'm moving my hand. Like, it looks like you can do that. And then it just doesn't move. There's no feedback loop that it's not moving. Your brain even thinks it's moving, but it's not moving. It's like the worst, like most terrifying thing.
So the doctor says, look, the way you broke your neck was really at a zero degree angle. That is so rare. But as a result, there is no twisting of the spine. We think that we can get the blood out of your spinal column and you should get some or maybe all of your movement back. And I was like, oh, okay, I think I'm going to be fine. I guess I'm going to be fine.
And then I realized I had tears just streaming down the side of my face. And I was like, whoa, man, I have no idea what's going on.
Yeah, it was for sure all of the defenses were up. I don't know how else to describe it, but there was denial. Yeah. There was this curiosity of like, why is there no pain? Like that's when they did actually repair me and fix me. It was three days later. The pain was... indescribable how much pain I was in. But it was no pain for three days.
Yeah, so they did the surgery, but I had this very clear voice in my head that kind of determined that it's God. I'm not religious, but I don't know how else to describe the voice. And this voice was very clear. You're going to work with kids and food. Okay, well, where did that come from? I'm like tech CEO. I have a restaurant.
And we were working with some kids in schools with like some, you know, helping a local nonprofit. And he's like, no. You're just going to work on kids and food. And my good friend Antonio and my brother were in the hospital, and I was like, I'm going to work on kids and food. Because they were like, he's crazy. He lost his mind. Not that they weren't already. No one was arguing with me.
But I was like, I'm just going to do that. I need to say it out loud. And I remember resigning from my job as the CEO from the hospital. And that was it. It was just clear. It was a clear voice. It wasn't for a moment. It wasn't like a flash of light or anything. It was probably two weeks of clear voice. Of clarity. Clarity. Exactly. Clarity. No monkey brain. Nothing. No monkey brain.
Just clarity.
Well, I've done ayahuasca, and I've spoken to what they call Mother Aya, which is another version of God. It's a divine presence. Maybe I think it's a better way to say it. I've also had this debate in my head. Maybe it's just me. I'm talking to me. And it's my peaceful, more kinder, less caught up in the emotion of the day version of me. Maybe it's me. Okay, maybe it is, but it's there.
Yeah, all of the, which is really true. Evolution literally is true. That we all are, the photons from the sun came in. You're part fish. We all came from that. I think there's one, you know, so one of the things I do is meditate. And this was, I've been meditating for many, many years. And the way I meditate is I sit and I listen to my thoughts. And I simply just do that for 15 to 20 minutes.
And it just calms the nervous system. And I might breathe and just be calm. breathe through because it's been a stressful day. And it's just a beautiful way to kind of do it around. I remember I said I used to do a scotch at the bar after work. Now I go meditate, for instance. A little bit better for my health.
But meditation, I was taught, Sam Harris actually taught me this, was not so much just about watching your thoughts, but realizing that you're a watcher. You're actually a watcher. You're not just, like, who is the person watching you? That's you, actually. Your thoughts are floating through your mind, but you are the watcher. And I was like, oh, that's really interesting.
Okay, so I'm going to learn that. I'm going to be the watcher. And what I learned was I'm watching these thoughts go by, and there's a consistent other presence there. And I'm like, what is that consistent other presence? It's not a thought. It's not something I can kind of let it float away, and it doesn't even want to float away. It's just a consistent other presence that I can watch and feel.
Yes, yeah, that's how I feel. And it's a beautiful presence. It's not a presence that is trying to intervene. It's not a presence that is trying to tell you what to do. It's just a beautiful presence.
I learned about Mother Aya where you have this experience of talking to, actually, I would say the closest thing to breaking my neck, that feeling was ayahuasca.
Okay.
Yeah, sure. So first of all, I think there are many different ways to do it, right? And I've done many, many different ways. There's a very Western medicine approach where you have doctors that look after you during the day, put an eye mask on, you're on a futon, and you really are in a Western medicine setting. And it's, frankly, for me, has been the most powerful experience.
I feel the most comfortable because I'm part of Western medicine in my upbringing. the other extreme, but they're kind of in between would be very, probably a Peruvian ceremonies where you're probably going to go very much, um, uh, about, uh, You do it in a community, you do it with others, and you feel people go through their pain and their processing.
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