Kumail Nanjiani

And I really was, you know, kind of still am to the family.

I was like the prince of the family.

But what they got to see that nobody else got to see was this explosive anger that would happen every now and then.

And all that came from suppressing feelings, but also not in some ways not liking myself.

And I didn't realize that I didn't like myself until just a few years ago.

And I think...

When I sort of understood that, I was like, oh, a lot of these behaviors are now making sense.

And sensitivity is tied to that, too.

I knew I was always sensitive.

But then not liking that about myself, the fact that my feelings get hurt very easily, that I get sad very easily, and realizing that that's not how men are supposed to be and trying to push that down led to a lot of anger, led to a lot of self-hatred too because I didn't like that I was this sensitive.

You know when you're like in high school and stuff, you're supposed to be kind of like badass and you have this armor and nothing gets to you?

Everything got to me.

And it wasn't until I would say to my 40s where I was like, oh, I'm really, really sensitive.

And it's OK to just that's just my like cross to bear.

My feelings get hurt.

Nothing's going to fix that.

I have to accept it.

Well, at a certain point, it just became, part of it was the pandemic, just having to really sit with myself, just me and Emily.

We took it very seriously because my wife's in a high-risk group, so for a year and a half, we did not leave the house.

Just having to spend all that time, and we would separate for the day.