Kumail Nanjiani

So we'd wake up, we'd have breakfast together, we'd spend all day separately.

I would work, she would work, we'd write.

I'd work out and we then would come together for dinner and watch a movie at night.

So spending all that time with myself, I became very aware of like how things make me feel, how what my reaction to things is.

And I also actually do think acting did help with that, realizing like, oh, I have all this stuff I can tap into, which means that stuff is in there and I've been denying it.

Because I wasn't angry all the time.

I would get angry every now and then.

It was 100% denial.

It was certainly denial.

I just... Because on the surface, you know, in my 20s, I was smoking a lot of pot.

I was doing stand-up.

I was...

late to my work all the time.

So I was like, these are all like, to me, the signifiers of someone who's very chill and laid back.

Yeah.

Well, you know, it's like that, to me, the analogy is when a fan's moving really fast, it looks like it's not moving at all.

That's how I sort of felt.

Where on the surface, I was just like kind of chill, but inside was a tempest.

And it was just all these

conflicting cyclones of feelings seemingly canceling each other out, but they really weren't.