Lane Beachley

Like I didn't really give her much time.

Like I'm flying in and flying out.

I'm a FIFO for this date.

And she was very gracious and giving.

The challenge that I had was that she overshared in her first conversation and from that moment on I just had this element of distrust because I didn't want to believe the story she told me.

I didn't want to believe that I was conceived through date rape.

I didn't want to believe that I wasn't allowed to be kept.

I didn't want to believe that she wanted to keep me.

There were so many things I didn't want to believe.

So I just maintained my distance from her to keep myself safe and to keep myself right.

And it took me a long time to realize that the separation that we always felt in our relationship

was caused by judgment.

And it was caused by my judgment of her story.

And it wasn't until I just accepted that her story is her story and my story is my story.

And then let's just let that go, shall we?

And see if we can reconnect.

And over the years, we reconnected.

It's kind of like the ocean.

We flew in together and then we disappeared and separated again.

So there was a lot to...