Lane Beachley

I like to go through things a couple of times to just learn the lesson.

I like to be really good at having chronic fatigue.

Yes, exactly.

I wanted another trophy for enduring pain and hardship and challenge.

Look how hard it is.

I ended up with it a second time a couple of years later because I didn't learn from it the first time.

And the symptoms leading up to it were way more severe than the first time.

And yet I still chose to push through them and ignore them because I was number two in the world.

I don't have the time for this.

I don't have the time to listen to my body breaking down.

I have to push through and just keep going.

And then I ended up in states of depression and suicidality.

That was quite scary.

Chronic fatigue is a reflection of a bad relationship with my body because I'm mentally overriding everything that I feel.

So I'm disconnected.

And the more disconnected I am, the further I stay away from healing myself.

With chronic fatigue syndrome, I had to learn to accept that I was unwell and give myself forgiveness and then empower myself with knowledge and wisdom outside of myself, reach out for support.

So many times I've stumbled through the dark and finding ways to

heal and grow.

And when I reflect on that period of the second experience with chronic fatigue syndrome, I stumbled for a long time and I denied myself support and help.