Laura

The whole time I'm blaming myself.

Like this is because of what I did.

This is my fault.

And I am not as severely depressed as I was like for those first couple of months afterwards.

But...

Anything abortion related triggered me very, very badly.

So a commercial on TV, a plot point in a show is very common.

There would be like protests, random protests somewhere in town and we would drive by them.

I remember I was on the phone with my husband's

On the way home from work, I was like just on my way home talking to him and a truck goes by with like an anti-abortion sign on the truck and I just break down into tears.

I have to pull over.

I am completely annihilated.

Like I cannot even get myself together and I'm crying on the phone with him for a long time until I'm able to finally pull myself together.

And I remember we went to like this like town festival and there were abortion protesters outside the festival and I couldn't go in.

We went back to the car, went back home because I immediately started crying.

So it was an extreme trigger for me throughout this whole time.

And I am just, you know, this is my fault.

I did this.

I made this decision.

It is totally my fault.