Laura

And something I do want to make clear is that I'm still very much pro-choice at this point.

Like, I made this decision.

This is my fault.

This is something I should not have done.

But I in no way feel like...

that applies to anybody else yeah that is very much my own internal decision anybody else can do whatever they want yeah but for me i i still to this day i feel like it's the wrong decision even though i've made peace with it at this point yeah i kind of i still feel that when there's no you know

grasp it in many different ways.

Right.

So we are at kind of a junction where we decide either we want to go IVF or we want to go adoption.

And in my mind, I'm thinking I'm never going to be pregnant because I'm being punished.

So even if we go IVF, it's not going to work.

We're

logically it's around the same amount of money to go either path for us.

So we're not going to go that way because it's just not going to work for me.

I know it right now, even not considering science or medicine or anything like that.

I'm just in my gut.

I know that's not going to work.

So we decided to go the adoption route and

There's a lot of stuff we have to do to prepare for it.

Like we bought a house and then we saved up our money and stuff.