Laura

And I did.

And I apologized.

And I said, it's time to let you go.

And goodbye.

We're done.

And then the next failure happens.

And I'm like, I'm still pretty bummed about it.

But at the same time, this is the one where I'm like, I'm just not feeling it.

And then the agency comes back to us and they're like, we can renew your contract for three months and we'll see what happens.

But after that, we can't renew it again.

You have to redo the whole thing.

And during that three months is when we get matched with my son's mom.

And even so, during that time, it's not that long after the previous failure.

It's like only a couple of days, maybe a couple of weeks.

And we're like, do we even want?

to do this right now and I I convinced my husband I was like listen this is probably our last shot because she is not due until after our renewal is over so it's kind of like now this is it like either we take this or we don't have another chance

unless we want to decide to pay all the money again.

And at this point, we were like, we're not going to do that.

We had made that decision.

We were going to take a break at least before considering it again.