Lauren (Caller)

Yeah.

Yeah, and I guess it's just, I think, you know, the entirety of my childhood and my life, my father's never taken ownership for his own decisions.

And it just is this like...

feeling of a, you know, yes, I'm, I am at peace with my decision to not speak to him because I, I don't need him.

I found what I've needed, um, outside of him and I've done all the, you know, therapy and the healing and all that stuff for that.

I just, it just, it saddens me that this, in this last interaction, I know that he's, that there's going to be aftermath that I can't, that I can't help.

And I can't, I can't fix because I want, I want the people who

should be affected, be affected, and the people who don't need to be, who shouldn't be affected, not affected.

I mean, I want perfect, but I can't have perfect.

And I think that part of it's also, this is going to sound terrible.

I don't feel sad.

I mean, I feel sad for my stepmom, but when I hit the block button on my dad, I felt like,

like I could exhale for the first time in like 30 years.

Like I, the show's over.

I don't have to do this anymore.

And I think.

Yeah.

It's a hard thing to.

Yeah.

Hi, thank you so much for taking my call.