Lawrence

Cause I would never, while I understand that porn, you know, some people can look at it as cheating.

I would never act on that.

Um, I, I would never physically step out of my marriage.

Um, yeah, but she doesn't know that.

Yeah, she doesn't know that.

But the trust thing is the hardest part, that she feels like she can't trust me.

And she basically said that she needed some time to think, and our therapist suggested the one week no contact.

That was the hardest, longest week of my life, I thought, at the time.

And we reconvened, and she walked into the...

Therapy session late, I noticed she didn't have her wedding band on.

When I saw her walk in the door, my heart immediately sank because that was the first thing that I noticed, that she wasn't wearing her wedding band.

And she sat down and said she wanted a divorce.

And my life has been basically crumbled since then.

So we're a month post that last therapy session.

Our therapist suggested...

we each individually see therapist.

Um, again, I dove all in.

I've been meeting with my therapist weekly, um, here more recently biweekly.

Um, and I'm all, I'm all in, you know, trying to do better for myself, um, fix my problems, my vulnerability, my honesty problems, um, vagueness problems.

Um, and, um,