Laya Mosto

Yeah.

it's like harder than everybody thinks and everybody's like oh like but you've done so much and like you've moved so many places and like went to school you you know you got your degrees and like now you're in New York and you're doing this you know you're doing all your work and I'm like yes but I never was able to like savor that it always felt like an expectation like it always felt like something I had to do a part of like that survival of like I had to get out

I had to build a better life for myself.

I had to build a better life for that little girl who like everything was taken away from her.

It's like your mom said, like your education is your weapon.

So that is still survival.

It is still survival.

And now I'm like, well, what do you mean I'm allowed to like rest?

What does that look like?

I'm allowed to like decorate my room.

So I haven't done that.

I bought a few pillows, but I'm like, oh, like maybe I could print out a poster and like put something on my wall.

And like maybe I can get a hobby or maybe I can just like enjoy things a little more.

I had to stop doing a lot of the things that I enjoyed.

Like the war started.

I couldn't go to basketball practice anymore.

I couldn't go to my music classes anymore.

I stopped playing guitar.

I stopped playing keyboard.

I had to stop a lot of things.