Leo Skeppi

That's the only time I could appreciate something in myself was when it was appreciated externally or else I would see it as worthless.

Like I got to that point with my body and I'm like, I look the way that I do.

I put a lot of effort into myself.

I don't sleep the fuck around and I,

I can't find a person who appreciates that for shit.

So it's like, why am I holding onto this so hard?

Yes.

It builds me up in my scale of like earning worth, but like,

I'm holding on to this thing.

Am I just supposed to fucking die alone knowing that I had integrity?

And then I had to start being like, wait, wait, wait.

I got a question if I want this.

That's what came next was like, okay, even if it's never externally validated, do I want it?

Do I like the way that I'm living?

Do I like who I am and how I am?

And that's been a question that's been unfolding.

But that's not a question I was able to ask.

Because I saw there was like... That's the rushed feeling.

It's like there's no time to figure out what I want to hold on to just for myself.

I didn't stop and think of that.