Leo Skeppi

I know that I'll always show up for myself, but it's been getting hard to do that.

But people from the outside don't see me that way.

Nobody knows that I feel like that with when I make posts or release things or sell things.

Everybody just looks at me like they have so much faith in me and they have so much trust that what I do will do well.

And I've been so envious of that.

I'm like, I wish I could fucking see myself like that.

I wish I could have the faith that other people have in me.

I wish that I could have that perspective a little bit to ease some of this fucking frantic, constantly trying to prove that I can't prove.

It's like proving my worth is...

And I can't prove it.

It doesn't matter how many times I've proven it past what I thought I could ever do.

It still don't, the cup's got no bottom.

It just go right through.

I've been getting a new understanding of transactional love and like transactional dynamics with things.

I'm very transactional.

I like transactions.

If you tell me, okay, you can behave this way and you do these things and then you get this outcome, I'll take it.

I have no problem with that.

I like it.

I can exceed any expectation or requirement of me.