Lewis Howes

So it was pretty.

It was like sunken in and it affected my posture.

So I was like forward and inward rotated.

And then I think also my shame around it made that, you know, I had like this kind of a posture.

And so, and I would,

like in a thuggy way.

Right, right, right, right.

I felt like I was deformed and I was very ashamed of the way, I would never take my shirt off.

No, this was longer ago.

This was like when I was like 18, 19.

Okay, okay, gotcha.

Even earlier, like 17, 18.

No.

So then this was back in Sweden, yeah, yeah.

And then I was kind of living a pretty,

negative life i was uh you know partying a lot getting into trouble doing a lot of drugs um kind of aimless pretty lost and and then i found acting and it was the first time i really felt like there was something like there was a potential that life could be

positive and life could be good like and life could even become maybe special and and it really like caught on to me and i i got i had a couple of experiences early on where i had the courage to like apply for theater school and uh and while preparing for that theater school i was working with a professional actor and had like an experience while i was preparing this monologue from long day's journey into night and

it clicked in in a special way and I realized later it was the first time I experienced flow and all these emotions came out and the words came out in a way that I hadn't really planned it and it connected to my relationship with my own father and it just like became something explosive and

and this teacher or actor you know he sort of was the first one to really encourage me in the way where he said like look you could do this for for a profession if you want to and um and then it just like it caught on like a virus in me and i became completely obsessed um you're what 18 19 20 21.

No.