Lewis Howes

Yeah, I think, I mean, a lot of those issues were stuff that I was dealing with earlier on.

And it was sort of coming into my own, coming into like adulthood.

And I think I was...

I'm also sort of still unpacking a little bit of what I was going through.

And I mean, I think some of it was like youthful insecurity.

Some of it was like a lot of bad habits.

I was drinking a lot, doing a lot of drugs.

and um and then and then just i hadn't learned how to deal with like the chatter and the negative voices in my mind and how i had you know all these like different conflicting feelings about myself and you know dealing with self-loathing and not letting myself

have success, you know, so whenever I went, you know, when whenever I would get close to something that was would potentially be like a big step or or something that anything that was scary, you know, I would have these

voices in my head that would really like trip me up and and and would like speak to me and most harsh way and what would the voices say like you're not you're not deserving of this success or this is too big for you or you're not ready for it or It would just it was kind of just be like chatter and and and it just negative.

Yeah.

Yeah It's hard to put words on the exact words that it was saying But it was like like negative energy that you know that I would fail that I wouldn't succeed that I'm not worthy

And yeah, so I had really bad, like...

It actually started earlier, but even before I was acting, it was, I have, and still have like a, it's called pectus excavatum, where I have like a small indentation in my chest.

I used to have like a much bigger indentation in the chest.

I did a sort of a corrective surgery when, about 10 years ago.

And after that, I just wanted to be, you couldn't catch me with the shirt on after that.

When I grew up, like I had this like indentation in my chest.

And it was pretty, they grade that like from a one to 10 severity.

And I think I had like a seven and a half.