Lindsay Addario

But it was for him his first attack.

He first learned about his family's death on Twitter and on social media, and he recognized the luggage and the jackets.

And we met with him a few days later with Andrew Kramer, the New York Times bureau chief at the time.

Well, I mean, look, no one ever got it right.

Maybe that's not fair to say, because obviously a documentary on a man like Jim Noctoway, the war photographer, was brilliant.

And Jim is brilliant.

I mean, he's an extraordinary war photographer.

But we're very different people.

And I think the image that most people have in their heads of war photographers is that

Like Jim, you know, stoic, strong.

You know, he puts everything into his work and doesn't really share his personal life.

And I think that that is a majority.

I think Jim represents a majority of people who do the work that I do.

But I guess when I said no one ever gets it right, it's more like...

We're not all like that, you know, and I rarely see the picture of a woman depicted in that role as a war photographer.

And so I really wanted to show a different version.

In my heart, all I want to be doing is shooting.

It's frustrating.

I'm constantly tortured, like I'm not in the right place.

But I come back, I'm supposed to be really happy, and I feel like I should be there, and I feel like a bad journalist, because I'm not.