Lisa Fong

So again, he did pee and I'm like, oh, well, that was fine.

He peed, but like, it just, I don't want to live this life.

Like of this, it's not like a normal life of like,

it's because there's just so much to it yeah like I run I know what that life feels like so vividly like that that worry and it's just always so rife when anything is a little bit different now it's just like it's just yuck and I don't want to be in it I want to run away from it

I don't want to have to get back into that hospital and hear it again.

Okay, you've now got cancer in your prostate.

So there's this, like, constant fear.

Because if he had three different cancers, what means, like...

is it probably likely that he's going to get more because he's already had three leukemia lymphoma and thyroid like so i'm kind of just like grappling like wait it's just it's but you can't and then you know you shouldn't live like that you should be like don't there's no point in worrying about that because it's not he's but you every day something will happen and you like go back into that spiral and then the other part is um

And then you're quarantined for like four boys and two teenagers and one about to turn 12 and like, he's fine.

And, um,

And him, Dan going to bed by seven every night.

So I'm dealing with Rico.

If he came home drunk or something like, I don't want to deal with that was what Dan, Dan was the dad was going to deal with drunk teenage boys.

Not that he's come home drunk, but like, I think he might've been a bit boozy last night, but he was fine.

But I'm like one day it will be like, I don't deal with drunk people very well.

I don't.

And I don't want to Dan to be in bed at seven.

I want him to be up for Rico when he comes home from somewhere.

I don't want to be that person, but then.