Lisa Harper

to actually be honest about, Jesus, I can't carry the weight of my own life anymore.

And I heard the Lord through Holy Spirit.

I've never heard an audible voice, but His voice was unmistakable and so loud in that moment.

And He said, Lisa, you've been running scared your whole life.

And so I'm going to take you to the basement, and I'm going to sit there with you in the dark until fear doesn't own you anymore.

And he was so present.

I think it's St.

John who calls it the dark night of the soul.

But his presence became so palpable.

All the things I taught through the years, and it wasn't the Greek and the Hebrew that caused me to just actually collapse into the embrace of God.

It was the

I believe helped me in my unbelief.

It was I'm your front guard and your rear guard.

It was bring everything to me.

Don't curate your emotions.

And there was about six months where I couldn't get out of bed without saying the name Jesus out loud.

And then I'd kind of stumble to the bathroom and I had passages laminated in the bathroom, passages laminated in the shower.

And I was so foolish.

I was embarrassed that I was so weak.

But God's presence was so – it's always His compassion that leads to repentance.