Lisa Harper

And so I'd say that – it wasn't a moment.

It was a season.

But it was in His mercy.

He just – He kind of kicked what wasn't godly out from under me so I would collapse correctly.

Isn't it crazy how the things that you could—

You could talk about it.

You could teach about it.

You could exegete it.

Oh, I taught and preached.

Yeah, all of it.

But emotionally, I think there was a corner of my heart that was agnostic.

It's like I believed I could quote the multi-Slavic theological phrases, but this corner of my heart didn't.

I just didn't believe that he would be enough.

And I was so afraid of the...

The painful parts of my story, I thought, if I go back there, I'm going to drown.

And he just so graciously took the things that so much control over me.

Oh, I watched all from the beginning.

I do too, and I love to study.

I have platonic crushes on all the old dead theologians, so I love reading those books too.

And that common denominator, I think, with all of them, Chalmers, Spurgeon, is there was this moment that they really did get to the end of themselves.