Louis Tomlinson

Yes.

Yeah.

She told me that she had leukemia.

My first answer was, I don't know where, again, this is just like the definition of denial.

My first answer, word for word was, oh, that's the good one to get though, right?

Meaning that has the most survival rate.

And bless her, she has to be like...

And how long was it from that phone call to her passing?

I have no idea.

My guess would be 18 months.

I think it might have been quicker than that.

The anniversary of her death, I get texts all the time on whenever the anniversary is and someone will say, thinking of you today.

And it's only at that point that I know that that's the day.

Because it's deleted from my brain.

She passes because you don't have a... Your biological father isn't around.

You're very much at that point, you know, you're the... In some respects, you're the father of lots of siblings because you're the big brother.

You went out on stage three days after her death for an X Factor performance.

From what I understand from Lottie, she very much pushed you to do that before she passed away and told you that you...

you needed to do that performance.

And I knew exactly what that was.